For His Good & For His Glory

Oh my word, what I have been so busy doing that I haven't updated this in forever?! Well, since my last post, my "dear friend" showed up. How did that make me feel? 1.) I really wasn't surprised that it showed up, I knew in my heart I wasn't pregnant. 2.) I was sad, but no tears were shed. 3.) I was able to move on and accept it more easily than in times past. Each month that passes, I still get sad; but it gets easier to accept.
A friend of mine and I were talking-she is going through this as well. We are often told, that if God ever allows us to get pregnant when we look back these months will look so small and we will smile and think ourselves silly because we thought we would be waiting for forever. I can't help but think that though it may true, the people that often tell us these things get pregnant quite easily so they really don't know what we are feeling. Feelings of helpless and hopelessness are no "silly" matter and right now it is hard to think of the future. Its best to just live day by day and not put hope into "what ifs" and possibilities that may never be.
My husband and I are going to keep "trying" until December and if we are still not pregnant, we are going to consider talking to a doctor and seeing what can be done. We have now officially been trying for 9 months total.
God is good and He is always right, even though it may seem that we disagree with His will, deep down we really do want it because it best and this situation is for my good and for His glory!